By Sadhguru – Founder, Isha Foundation

One of the major problems in the world today is the fact that every sphere of our lives — from the intellectual to the religious — is governed by conclusions. When I speak of the spiritual journey as ‘quest’, the immediate assumption is that I am encouraging people to look for God. People forget that even God is a conclusion. Unfortunately, the obsession with conclusions is inculcated in our most impressionable years.

Growing up, I was a die-hard sceptic. Even at the age of five, when my family went to the temple, I had questions. Who is God? Where is he? Up there? Where is up? A couple of years later, I had even more questions. In school, they said the planet was round. But if the planet was round, how did one know which way was up? No one ever managed to answer these questions, so I never entered the temple.

This meant I was invariably left by my parents in the custody of the footwear attendant outside. He held me by the arm in a vice-like grip; he knew that if he looked the other way I’d be gone! Later in my life, I noticed that people coming out of restaurants always had more joyful faces than those coming out of temples.  That intrigued me.

And yet, while I was a sceptic, I never identified with that label either. I had lots of questions, but never felt the need to draw any conclusions. I realised very early that I knew nothing about anything. That meant I ended up paying enormous attention to everything. I could stare at a glass of water, a leaf, even at the darkness, endlessly.

I gradually realised that language was no more than a conspiracy devised by human beings. When someone spoke, I saw they were only making sounds, and I was making up the meanings. So, I stopped making up meanings and the sounds became hugely amusing. I could see patterns spewing out of their mouths. If I kept staring, the person would just disintegrate and turn into a blob of energy. Then all that was left was patterns!

When my eyes were open, everything fascinated me. But to my amazement, I found that with my eyes closed, there was even more that grabbed my attention — the way the body pulses, the organs function, the inner energies move, the anatomy is aligned. I saw boundaries are actually limited to the external world. Instead of coming to a simplistic answer that I was ‘this’ or ‘that’, I saw that if I were willing, I could be anything. Even the certainty of ‘me’ collapsed. From knowing myself as an autonomous person, this exercise melted me down. I became a nebulous being.

In this state of borderless ignorance, anything could hold my attention. This perturbed my physician father who began to believe I needed psychiatric evaluation! It has always seemed to me odd that the world does not see the immensity of the state of ‘I do not know’. Those who destroy that state with beliefs and assumptions forget that ‘I do not know’ is a tremendous doorway — the only doorway — to knowing.

The ability to look without motive is missing in the world today. Unfortunately, everybody is a psychological creature, wanting to assign meaning to everything. Spirituality is not about looking for God or truth or the ultimate. It is about enhancing your perception, your very faculty of seeing. I have never looked for anything in my life. And my life endeavour is to teach people just this: If you really want to know spirituality, don’t look for anything. Just learn to look.

[Ranked amongst the fifty most influential people in India, Sadhguru is a yogi, mystic, visionary and best-selling author. Sadhguru has been conferred the “Padma Vibhushan,” India’s highest annual civilian award, by the Government of India in 2017, for                   exceptional and distinguished service.]